Absence of courage


I fear what could happen to you.

I think of something bad happening to you all the time. 

Cannot have a good night's sleep without dreading your dismissal from life, from living.

Unable to surrender to the belief that it is all in my thoughts. 

I have become a junkie of all things negative.

Unable to live because I am unable to get you out of my head.

A head that loathes itself in too much denial by itself. It tries to feed courage to itself by being in a place where it is not possible.

Dreaming the dream. But not having enough courage to go after it.